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I definitely just lost out on the most tastiest meal I've had in . . . well, since I left Anastasia. I haven't had much since I left her. . . barely any food, no new clothing, and no sort of love or friendship. I've ran from everyone that has come along my path, and I guess I'm just afraid to start anything; in terror that I'll break their hearts or end it.

So I sit here in my corner and play with my fingers just like every other day; pondering my thoughts on what if I did this different, what if I do this, or how could I have done that better sort of thing. Nothing was going to change unless I got my ass up and did it myself, because at this point, I knew nobody was looking for me.

If anyone did happen to find me, it'd be because they took a wrong turn and were lost. . . or they just came over to the buildings to have a quick silent thought.

Trey Adam's? Who the hell is he?

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It had always been in Raven's soul to explore. But between work, and finding time to get herself settled she had little time to do what she loved best. With the week off since the owner was running out for a vacation she was doing as they had been told and enjoying the time she was given. The night was cool, and Raven found herself enjoying the newly brought spring weather. Her wandering feet brought her to some abandonded buildings, just beyond her usually wandering places.

Perhaps it wasnt the smartest thing to veer off her path and head into them. There was no telling what sort of person lurked in its tall and shifting shadows, or how stable the building stood with its wood rotted out. Maybe it was that danger that lured her more than anything. What ever it was, it didnt much matter. Raven knew she could protect herself. A blade was hiden on her person and she was ready for what might come.

Everything was silent, except for her foot falls as each beem of wood groaned and squeaked in protest. She kept her steps as light as possible as shegaze at the aged rooms, the dust filled corners and the slivers of moonlight that crept in. The beauty of the building was haunting, in its own strange way. Thoughts, questions, of the past life this building filled her mind. However mundane it was, it fascinated her. A strange love of hers but she wouldn't change her knack for exploring. She was unaware, completely, that another living thing resideded here.

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It was only a matter of moments into my thoughts that I smelled something peculiar. With a few sniffs in the air, I immediately stood up and was about to run off after realizing a person was roaming in the next room. I then stopped and thought about it; a person was here, and it wasn't Anastasia. It obviously wasn't a Vampire, because I wasn't getting sick - so what would the hurt be to finally just. . . . talk to someone?

"He--hello?"

I said in a light, squeaking tone. I hadn't used my voice in a couple of hours, and my throat was completely dry. I quickly heaved and tried to swallow some spit. .

"Hello?"

I said much clearer. I walked in my dirty, ripped up clothes out the door way and saw a girl standing there. Her clean figure was the total opposite of mine. I was dirty; covered in dried blood, dirt, scrapes, bruises. . . and most were visible due to all the rips and tears in my clothes. I hadn't showered in at least two months. . . so lord only knows how bad I smelled.

I didn't dare go any closer. . . I just put on a half smile and lifted my hand up in a 'no harm' manner.

"I'm Trey. . ."

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Raven hadn't been expecting to hear a voice. She reached up to move aside a tattered curtain when the voice echoed through the room. It caught her off gaurd and she jerked back, her hand flying for a moment to the knife she had hidden on her person. If it was a crazy she was sure she could easily scare it off. Who else would be creeping in the shadows of a building? Well, she was herself, but that was a different story... The voice sounded weak, whoever it was, Raven was postive she could easily handle them.

She turned, making sure that her back no longer faced a wall. That was a situation she wasn't placing herself in, just incase. The voice came again. Clearer this time. A man, she was certain of that. She could hear the shuffling of his footsteps, draging across the floor and spinning up dust everywhere. It's specks glittered in the moonlight, adding to the strange beauty of the place. But she didnt allow herself to get distracted with such things. Her full gaurd was up until whatever it was showed themselves. No words passed her own lips, no 'who's there'. She stayed silent, not sure what to think of the stranger.

Finally they came into the light. A man yes she had been right, but wrong at the same time. What she saw here was only a shell of what was once a man. The stench of an unwashed body waved over her, and with the state he was in she suppsoed it had been more than a few days since he'd seen water. But his beaten, bloodied state made her even more on gaurd. This man had fought, and it might also mean that he was dangerous.

When he raised his hand, Raven wasnt sure how to respond. Her brow raised for just the slightest moment before she finally allowed herself to speak. "What the hell are you doing here?" she demanded. Her hand let the blade creep into it, wraping her hand around the hilt. Just in case.

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All she said was, "What the hell are you doing here?" and I just shook my head and walked towards the nearest corner to slide down the wall and rest my hands over my knees. I was weak, and I was tired. I had fought earlier for a piece of steak, but another wolf beat me to the punch and has given me a nice gash across my back. I couldn't fight as well as I used to. . . and half of it was because I don't eat that much. I just sighed and looked up at her with tired eyes. . .

"This is where I have lived for. . . . well, my whole time here in New York. There were a couple months last year that I stayed with my girlfriend at the time, but. . . we. . . yeah. ."

I became silent, not wanting to talk about Anastasia. I missed her so much, and I still loved her with every living piece of my heart. It had been broken. . . not by her, but by me. I was so depressed since I left her that I've lost all control of myself. I'm letting myself starve, I'm losing so much muscle mass, and I'm actually starting to get sick. Ever since I left her. . . I've abandoned myself.

I treat myself like I don't deserve anything, and in my head, I truly don't. I've given up on life. . . and in front of me was someone who looked like they actually have a life. Why should I sit here and dwell on the fact that someone walked by and is actually here? She isn't here for me, and I guarantee she doesn't even want to hear anything I have to say.

"You can. . . go now if you want. I'm not going to secretly attack you. Hell, I don't even have the energy to get up right now. . ."

I said with a small yawn before leaning my head back against the dusty wooden wall.

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Raven let her hand relax as he all but turned his back to her. Anyone looking for a fight wouldn't have backed off so easily. The knife was slipped away, but for Raven it wouldn't be hard to have it at the ready. She was offering this man a bit of a chance. She should have turned around and left. It would have been the end of her night, no more exploring for her. But something stopped her. PErhaps it was because he needed taken care of. No one else had needed her since she had left Alex. That lonliness in his voice, it was something she could understand.

Ontop of that he was wounded, and most likely starving. Now, Raven wasnt exactally an angel, but she felt for him. Healing was her specialtiy, she loved taking care of others. But this..stranger. She didn't owe him anything. Trying to take care of him would be out of place. A small huff left her lips and she started to move forward, readying herself to leave.

She only got a few steps before she stopped, and a slight sigh left her lips. The dust wouldn't be good for those cuts, she imagined some would already be infected. She could at least get him out of the disgusting building, dump a bucket of water on him...

No, she wouldn't go that far. Just, get him out of the place before he hurt someone else who wasn't as perpared as her. Yes, that seemed rational. Turning around she faced him again, her arms crossed. "The world doesn't stop turning because you lost your girlfriend." Her voice was short, a little biting almost. But it was the fact of the matter. Her world couldn't stop when she lost Alex, even if she had been with him for half her life. "And hiding away like some wounded dog doesnt make the world any better either, you realize that?" Why did she care? She kept asking herself that, but the words had already passed her lips.

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"The world doesn't stop turning because you lost your girlfriend."

She shot out in a short tone before walking out. I just lifted my head up and quirked an eyebrow at her. The world doesn't stop turning because I lost my girlfriend? Does she even know how much Anastasia meant to me? No. She has no fucking clue what I have been through in my life. . . losing everything at such a young age and being by myself for almost 200 fucking years is not an easy walk in the park. Especially being turned and having to go through it by yourself. Wait a minute. . . why should I have to explain myself to her?

"You. . . have no clue the life I've lived, and you have no idea how much pain I've been in since I left her. . . so don't come into the place that I call "home" and try to bring me down, alright? If you feel the need to judge me right now. . . either leave, or stab me with your damn knife that you kept playing with."

"And hiding away like some wounded dog doesnt make the world any better either, you realize that?"

What the hell? Was she trying to make a point, or stab at me with some awesome words that were doing a great job? I finally lifted myself up off the ground and walked towards her, but as I did, I felt a sharp pain go right through my chest and I immediately fell forward on to the ground. I curled my legs up squeezed my eyes shut. The pain was excruciating, and it felt like knives were being stabbed through my skin.

If I didn't end up doing something about this soon. . . I honestly didn't know how long I had to live.

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Raven opened her mouth to respond, but the words didn't have a chance to leave her lips. He started towards her, lifting his pittiful self from the ground. It was somewhat painful to watch, really. To see him struggle to just make the slightest movements. It really was some situation that he got himeslf stuck in. That's why she no longer worried about the knife, he could hardly walk, let alone attack her.

He collapsed, and she wasn't surprsied. Infact she was almost more than ready for it. She couldn't catch him, he was far too heavy for her, but she could be there in the next instant. Moving quickly she kneeled at his side and reached to his shoulder, to pull him so that he lay flat, not curled up in a ball. It might feel like it would help his pain, but really it wouldnt.

"That's a stupid thing to say. You don't exactally know my life either, do you?" she said in that same biting tone. Sure it was kicking him while he was done in an inadvertant way, but it was the truth. "And if you've been through so much pain, how does making more for yourself make any sense? After all, you created the pain for yourself by leaving her."

While she spoke her hands moved to push aside the toren fabric, to find any wounds, any source of his pain. She didn't have anything for them on her person, but she could bring him to help. And if he didnt want the hospital somewhere else.

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She knelt down beside me and moved me flat on my back. I felt her shift my shirt around, and I didn't know what she was doing. All I know is that I didn't need help. . . and I didn't need to be told what to do. My ear then caught the last of what she was saying. .

"And if you've been through so much pain, how does making more for yourself make any sense? After all, you created the pain for yourself by leaving her."

"You-- have no clue, and I DON'T need your help!

I said a bit out of breath from the pain before I ripped away from her and moved myself against the nearest wall. She was trying to almost be friendly in a harsh way, but I honestly didn't need it. I wanted someone who was going to listen to me, and just be a friendly ear. I knew I wasn't going to get it, but I could hope that someone out there cared. . . right?

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"Stop being an ass hole." Raven snapped back at him. She let him jerk away from her, her hands fell to her lap as she watched him. But after a moment she let out a soft sigh and shook her head. If he didn't want help, then fine, she wouldn't force it on him. It didn't matter much to her anyways.

She let silence settle in the room for a moment, her mind running over far too many thoughts. More than it should have been. "Fine, I wont give you help." She finally said, cutting the silence and pushing herself to her feet. Her dark jeans were covered with dust, and she was sure it was on her shirt and in her hair as well, but she didnt bother to fix it.

"But I know how it is, and I do have a clue," her tone dropped, just for a moment. It was breif, but it was enough to show the hurt she had been hiding for a while now. No, she wasnt about to drop her gaurd from some stranger, but her heart did go out to him. No one should have to suffer heart ache, but life was a bitch that way.

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She said she had a clue. . . but I honestly don't think she does. I have been through so much loneliness, that it'd be hard to even compare it to. . . well. . . anything other than that. But here I go. . . spilling my sob story like someone cares.

"I was turned. . . a very long time ago into a werewolf. I was taken from everything; my friends, family. . . and I went through it by myself. I've lost count now, but it's been like. . . 197 years since I've been turned, and I never had a friend or someone who cares about me as much as. . . . Anastasia did. She loved me and went through hell to keep me as her boyfriend. In fact, I almost died taking on some huge hyena who ended up whooping my ass. . . but I fought for her.

Needless to say, I ended up getting her pregnant. We loved each other and I was trying to help her through it, but she was so scared. . . so she ended up losing the baby. . . and I left. I came back here to where Anastasia had found me. She took me away from this place for a couple of months and gave me a home, food, showers. . . and love. Now I'm back to nothing, all because I was so afraid that. . . I'd ruined her life. I thought she deserved better than me. . . so I left. Now I'm stuck here again with nobody. . living my life back to how I lived it for 197 years, or something like that.

I'm just tired of it. . . nobody to talk to, nobody caring. . . and I can't even tell you how much I miss Anastasia. That girl meant the world to me, and she still does. . . but something inside of me just tells me that I'm not worth her time. I was some useless wolf she found in the buildings, and she was basically taking care of me and doing everything for me. I felt like I was using her, even though I loved her more than words can describe.

I. . . I wanted to be with her for the rest of my life, but for the first time, I was scared I might ruin someone else. I thought back to when I was turned and how it ruined my life. . . and I was so afraid that I'd ruined Ana's, I'd turned on her and ran. I proved to everyone that I was the man they thought I was. . . someone who'd ditch her and leave her to herself.

I proved that I'm worthless. . ."

I said and just shook my head with a huge sigh, relaxing it in my hands. I wanted to let loose and break down with heavy sobbing, but I was holding it in due to the girl being near me. I couldn't look vulnerable. . even though physically, I was.

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Raven was silent as he told his story, her mind running at a thousand miles per minute. Mostly she kept getting caught up on that word. Werewolf? Really? Last time she checked those were nothign more than teenaged novels and stories to scare little kids. Not real life, breathing things. But what else could exist as this man...thing, had. He was here for so long without food, water...much longer than a human would. And no human could sustain those wounds. For now, she went with it, but it was clear the question was on the tip of her tounge.

He had needed to get it off his chest, that much was clear. Raven ahd never been the type. Her problems were her own. She kept them to herself, and stayed the silent, strong, support system for Alex when he needed it. It was how she had been raised, for the short time she was influneced by her family. And although she was headstrong, a part of her could never shake the ideal that the role of woman in a relationship was the silent supporter.

After he had said his piece she stood up and turned her back to him. Not in disrespect, but because she could hear that shaking in hsi voice. He wanted to cry and if he needed to do so she would let him save his pride by not staring at him. It struck her how much she was reminded of herself in his words, isn't that what she was doing here? She ran. Though ther was no baby, she ran far away from the one thing she had loved in her life. "It doesn't mean you're worthless," she muttered. But for a moment it was almost as if she were speaking to herself.

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"But it does. ."

I disagreed and took all the energy I had to stand up. I could tell that she was being a strong person by listening to me and trying to make me feel better, but I'm a dog at heart. I know when something is hurting someone. . . and that is what Anastasia loved about me. I always knew how to cheer her up. And even though I was so weak right now, my heart sprung towards this girl.

"Anything you need to talk about?"

I asked and circled around to look her in the face. She had turned around for some reason, and I'm not sure why, but I didn't want to talk to her back. I wanted to talk to her face so I could try and read her. She listened to me. . . and now I wanted to listen to her. I missed this reaction from people, talking to them and all that.

No matter how tired or fatigued I was. . . someone was here and was wanting to talk, and I wanted it so bad. .

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Raven tossed him a rather cool look. It wasn't quite a glare, but it was a wall that she threw up between them. He might be the sort to spill out his hearts story, but she wasnt going to go there. "You just spent all this time telling me that I have no clue then you're going to ask me to poor my heart out to you?" She shook her head and stepped away, creating distance between the two.

"You need water, sleep in a proper bed and medicine. You dont need to be sitting here talking with me" She could take care of him, but it seemed she couldnt quite handle him trying to do the same with her. Her life simply didnt work like that, and she refused to let it start doing as much this time around. She had no troubles with sitting here and contuing to listen to him. That way she could be of some sort of use to the guy, man..werewolf. She shook her head once more at taht strange thought. But she figured this would be a bad time to spring something like that on him.

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"You need water, sleep in a proper bed and medicine. You dont need to be sitting here talking with me"

She said in a tone that made me realize she wasn't there to talk to me. . . or be my friend, which set true realization that I no longer had any use of her. I didn't want somebody to come in and try and make me all better. . . I needed to do that myself. I just wanted someone to care about me. . .

If I wanted someone to just take care of me, I'd roam the streets in my wolf form.


"Never mind - I don't need someone to come in here and take care of me. Just. . . leave me alone."


I said hopelessly and turned around to head back into the room that I 'dined' in. I slowly laid myself down on the ripped sheet that I used as comfort, and slid my head up on the ripped clothes I used as a pillow. It was going to be another long grueling night without anyone, but it was nothing I wasn't used to. . .

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