Night Time Walk (Seras)

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It hurt Hiro almost as much to see his Era swiftly look away and to feel her cringe as it probably did for her to see him hurt himself. He sighed a bit and wished the lingering taste of blood in his mouth was more pleasant like his lovers. But the vampire wouldn't dare touch her blood again, for fear of what it may lead to. He was constantly unsure of how his body would react to the onset of such a wonderful drink. The thought that he wouldn't be able to stop himself always haunted himself whenever he was even just near her. The look in her eyes when he'd believed he had killed her last time was always a quick notion away. It was in his dreams always, making his horror all too real.

"I know... I know bbydoll... And I love you for that..." he told her sadly. "But... if someone's to be hurt, better me than a beautiful little princess like yourself. Its not as if... it would make any difference on this body anymore anyhow..." Hiro ran a hand through his hair before getting some soft soap and rinsing his lover's body off, making to take extra special care of her delicate vagina. He knew it must be sore, but his cold touch was soothing and gentle. "Just please... you can't tempt me..." Hiro bit his lip and tried to hold back a few tears. "We couldn't know what may happen... I'm heaps sorry..."

As he continued to wash her body off for her, being the most gentle with her as he possibly could, Hiro just hoped to convey possibly even a fraction of how much he loved and absolutely adored every little thing about Era. The curves of her body, her sweet aroma, her taste, her cute voice, her petite breasts, everything about her was as precious to Hiro as life itself. Hurting her was the worst thing he could ever have done, and the vampire would regret it, regret what he was, for the rest of his life.

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[era]

Era smiled softly as Hiro washed her off, leaning against him gently she kissed his lips gently "I love you Hiro" she said with a smile, Era stayed leaning against him as she hooked her arms around his neck "Just warn me before you do that again to yourself". Hiro was right, Era shouldn't tempt him to drink from her, but she hated that he was adding more scars to his body. Staying leaning against him lightly her body had recovered from the fun they had in the kitchen, placing her head against his shoulder gently she closed her eyes and relaxed.

Era loved being with Hiro and the coolness of his skin made her relax even more, nuzzling his neck gently she kept her eyes closed as the water ran over her skin making her feel a little sleepy but she didn't want to go to sleep. She wanted to stay awake with Hiro, nibbling on her bottom lip lightly she opened her eyes with a soft smile.

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"I promise.... you won't ever have to see it happen again. I'm heaps sorry." As much as Hiro hated to keep anything from his Era, he knew it was for the best if she didn't have to know how he felt. How much he'd already hurt himself just to keep the edge off. She would be devastated to know how difficult it was for him to bear such a pain day in and day out, but the slight idea was more than he'd already wanted for her to have to understand. Every waking moment with her in his sights he could feel his throat get dry, his fangs wanting to grow in and his urge eating away at his heart. But hurting Era in such a way had traumatized him to such a severe degree there probably wouldn't be a way he could ever live through it twice. Hiro respected and adored his Era more than words could ever come close to describing. To be one of the people that had nearly brought her to her death and hurt her the most killed his heart every time he saw her. But his smile would never fade because each and every time she would look up at him with her majestic eyes, he would get lost and for even just an instant, feel less of a monster.

When Era had opened her eyes once more, Hiro couldn't even bring words to his mouth. All he could do was lean down and put a delicate hand on her rosy, blushed cheek and another around her waist, holding her close. The water rained down over their naked, pale bodies as Hiro pressed his lips so very passionately against hers. Time seemed to stop forever just then. But during their long kiss, surely Era too had felt his fangs grow back in. Slowly, Hiro pulled out of their kiss with the saddest look in his eyes, but it soon vanished with a blink and a tear. It was hard for him to even be around her anymore without dreaming about how wonderful her blood tasted. With everything, Hiro honestly felt as though he were beginning to truly lose his mind, and himself. It frightened him like no other, but he did his absolute best to hide it from Era. Though she wasn't unintelligent. She ought to have noticed that as of late his fangs were grown in quite often, and without his contacts his eyes were very rarely their natural amber anymore. They were always such a deep, blood red. The eyes of a monster. And just the past evening he had lost control of himself and become a brutal murderer just to protect her.

Hiro took a small step away from Era, his back pressed up against the warm tile of the shower, but to him it felt as though he were on fire. His contacts had somewhere since fallen out and Hiro stood with his eyes averted so she wouldn't have to see him for what he really was. Still, for fear of worrying her a smile was across his lips at all times. It was genuine for part of him was still happy inside, for her at least. Though the hatred he felt towards himself continued to grow dangerously severe.

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[era]

Watching Hiro move and placed his back against the tiles Era sighed softly, moving up close to him again she knew she was pushing her luck and his hold on himself. Leaning up slightly Era pressed her lips to his gently "Hiro, you don't need to look away from me" she whispered softly as she watched him. In truth Era was a little scared of what might happen if Hiro lost control, but she knew if that ever did happen she wouldn't stop loving him.

Placing a hand gently on his cheek she moved her hand and gently brushed her finger tips over his lips, watching Hiro Era moved her hand more and gently traced his jaw line before letting her hand slid down his neck gently and rest on his chest. "I know I'm make you feel horrible...like you wont be able to control yourself...and I'm sorry for that...but I still love you no matter what" she said softly with a smile as she kissed him again gently.

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When she spoke so softly to him, Hiro couldn't help but listen even though he knew it scared her at least a little to look into such horrifying eyes. They would make anyone's heart jump, but if she saw into them deeply, Era would see how sad they really were. Being a vampire right then almost made Hiro wish things were how they used to be, when he couldn't reach her or do harm to the girl in the window. All he could do was lavishly gaze upon her beauty everyday. But now, he had her in his arms, he was close to her, they had made love plenty together. Everything was as swell as could be, except in the back of his mind a voice always told him how wonderful she had tasted. A voice that knew all too well that his body would respond in ways he could barely control anymore. "I promise... its not you. Its not your fault... please, you needn't apologize, princess." Hiro spoke softly, again looking away. "The only thing you make me unable to control... is my love for you Era." His words were sincere and loving, but of course they hadn't been entirely truthful. Its what he himself wished to believe as well, but now he had become quite unsure of it. Though Hiro knew one thing, he absolutely hated to think Era would blame herself for making him feel the way he did. He was afraid she would leave him and the realization that it may have been possible made his heart hurt more than ever.

Without thinking, Hiro held Era tight to his chest and leaned down, poking his fangs against her neck but the instant he did so he pulled away and bit his lip hard. The vampire kept her close in fear of losing her, no matter how horrible he felt. Just then, he nearly slipped up and could have ended her life. As simple as that. Thankfully he didn't even draw blood or it could have been the end. But Hiro now knew he had to do something serious about it all or Era would be hurt. "I'm sorry.... I love you..."

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[era]

When Hiro pulled her to him tightly Era felt his fangs against her neck for a second before he moved looking up at him she shook her head slightly "Don't be sorry" she said with a soft smile before she pressed her lips against his gently "I love you too" she added, smiling she stayed leaning against Hiro comfortable. Moving her head she laid her head against his shoulder her forehead against his neck with a smile, "Never be sorry about anything" Era said gently as she looked up at him.

Kissing his neck gently Era tucked her hair behind her ears before she settled her head back against his shoulder her hands sitting on his chest, she didn't mind Hiro holding her tightly to him. Era was enjoying leaning against Hiro and his coolness and the warm water running down her back, the two different temperatures felt wonderful against her skin.

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Holding onto her and keeping her close, Hiro didn't even know what to do anymore. With her, with himself, with their relationship. He felt so incredibly lost. Of course he loved her more than life itself and cared about her safety, but in turn he knew he could be dangerous to her. The choice he might have to one day make scared him half to death just thinking about it. Would she be more hurt if he had to leave her to keep her safe, or if he stayed with her and fed off her? Nonetheless, either or would tear him apart. It wasn't a choice he could fairly make just on his own without her, but he knew if it had to be done, that's the way he must do it.

"Bbydoll... I... Im scared...." Hiro began in a soft, sad voice that could barely be heard over the sound of the shower. "Im frightened of this... of myself... I don't know what's happening anymore. Every time you're so close.... its like all I can think about is how wonderful you taste... Every time I close my eyes, I see you getting bitten and torn apart... Just kissing you makes me.... makes me feel like I'll turn against you and hurt you... for this selfish lust..."

With the water raining down over them, perhaps Era wouldn't have noticed he was crying, until his tears grew bloody and his eyes were sadder then ever.

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[era]

Looking up at Hiro as he spoke Era shook her head slightly before kissing his cheek, "You wont hurt me" she said gently. Carefully Era reached up and gently wiped his tears away, she didn't want him to feel like he was going to hurt her if he just touched her. Staying pressed aganist him she nuzzled his neck "Don't be scared" she whispered against his skin.

Gently hooking her arms around his neck Era watched Hiro carefully "You won't turn against me...I'll always be here for you" she said softly as she kept her arms around his neck, keeping a small smile on her lips she didn't want to make Hiro sadder then he already was.

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The vampire stood nervously in the shower, almost shaking when she put her arms around his neck and brought herself even closer to him. Hiro had grown so worried lately about her safety it felt so difficult to be her lover, though he wanted to remain as such forever. Her words were soothing and kind, but something suggested she couldn't possibly understand the magnitude of his pains and how desperately he was trying to keep his lust under control. But loving her so much meant wanting her close to him always. Things for him were always such a toss up. "I... I already have bbydoll.... what it... what if next time... you aren't so lucky?" His hands were shaking as he held her, barely able to even do that anymore without feeling frightened. Hiro could feel his weak heart beating far faster now and his breathing grew rapid and short. The pain set in his body terribly. Anxiety was one thing the normally calm vampire never could quite handle well and it was only now making his thirst for her blood even worse. His fangs were as long and sharp as could be and it took every ounce of strength left in him to not simply lean down and bite into her neck.

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[era]

Gently taking her hands from around his neck Era grabbed hold of Hiro's hands and laced her fingers with his gently "I trust you" she said with a soft laugh as she kissed his lips gently, "Now, how about we get out of this shower; get dressed and get something to eat" Era laughed softly as her stomach gave a soft growl at the mention of getting food.

Era wanted to relax with Hiro and get his mind off of him more then likely hurting her, she hated to see him so sad even if he didn't like showing her he was upset. Keeping her fingers laced with his for just a moment longer she took her hands away from him and turned off the faucet, smiling softly Era stepped out of the shower and grabbed a towel drying herself off before she wrapped it firmly around herself. Streatching slightly she rubbed her eyes as she gave a small yawn, the shower had woken her up more so then she really wanted.

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When Era laced her fingers with his own and kept her warm body against his, Hiro's heart skipped a few beats. He lost his breath for a few long moments and bit his lip hard. The love he felt for her was so great he wouldn't ever be able to put it completely to words either of them could understand, but right then it was making it very hard for him to stay sane. His body and mind wanted so desperately to feed of her and taste her brilliant blood splash across his tongue. The girl even told him she trusted him, when Hiro knew Era shouldn't on all accounts. Hiro couldn't even trust himself anymore and it frightened him. Era surely didn't understand what she meant.

"Let's get that lil tummy of yours sum food..." Hiro smiled. No matter how big of an appetite Era had, it only made him happy for the girl. She had such a perfect body, and perhaps the fastest metabolism he had ever seen. When the girl left the shower, Hiro didn't move. "I'll be... right...." the vampire couldn't even finish his sentence and let his lover know he would be out in a moment before biting into his arm. The blood spurt into his mouth, calming him down just a little, but soon his wound healed closed and he bit down again and again. Hiro was unable to stop himself. If Era was still in the shower, her neck would have looked like swiss cheese, but instead it was his arm. The more Hiro tasted his own blood, the less it helped him and the more he craved blood. Before long, it was a wonder how his arm didn't damn near fall off it was littered with holes and scars, pieces of flesh were torn off and blood flowed down the drain. It all soon healed, but the scars left behind were horrible. Finally, after another short outburst and biting into his arm some more, Hiro stopped to let it heal and his cravings were overcome for the time being.

After there was no more blood draining out of his arm, Hiro rinsed his scar covered arm off and stepped out of the shower, surprised to see Era still standing there. He looked away in shame and hid his arm behind his back, but his blood stained fangs were proof enough that when she would see his arm it was bitten worse than ever before. Hiro thought about tearing his fangs out. "Bbydoll.... can you.... can you please... go into the other room and wait for me... and cover your ears?" He knew it was like asking her not care that he was about to put himself through so much pain, but he didn't want to put her at any risk.

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[era]

Era bit her bottom lip lightly as she looked at Hiro as he stepped out of the shower, making a small nod of her head as she listened to him Era moved wordlessly into her bedroom. She hated when Hiro tore his fangs out it made her feel worse then ever though she didn't know why, moving to her wardrobe she got dressed quickly into a pair of black skinny jeans and a cute little red button up blouse that raised up exposing most of her stomach when she raised her arms.

Sitting on her bed with her legs crossed she covered her ears waiting to hear the pain Hiro was in, placing her elbows on her knees Era looked at her hair that had fallen in her eyes. She noticed that she might have to dye it again to stop any of her normal coloured hair showing through; closing her eyes she stayed sitting like that for a while.

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Taking a few deep breaths, Hiro pulled the knife he kept in the cabinet under the sink and thought long and hard. His reflection in the mirror upset him very much, but today it was different. It wasn't that his vampirism was undesirable, but more than anything right then, his disheveled, tired and hurt visage pained his heart. He knew all too well how horrible it must be for Era to see him like this. Thinking long and hard, the thought of perhaps leaving her for her own safety kept creeping into his mind and it upset him dearly.

With a scream that could wake the dead, even muffled, Hiro's fangs fell into the sink amidst a puddle of blood. It was a pain he only enjoyed for the sheer fact that he could no longer hurt Era for the time being without them. But something urged his vampirism and Hiro slit his wrist and brought it to his mouth. He drank until the colour further left his face and eyes, until his tummy was full of nothing else. A few of his new scars started to heal easier, but the newest ones on his arm and now wrist were more apparent then ever. Hiro grew afraid to even face his own lover in such a state.

As Hiro walked out of the bathroom slowly, he wore a brilliant smile. His dull, lifeless eyes were covered over with a vivid amber from his contacts. He hoped she wouldn't realize he was wearing them, but it was no secret that his eyes hadn't been his natural colour in a long time. For this reason alone, he avoided eye contact with Era and he sat on the bed beside her, putting an arm around her. "I'm so sorry... " His voice was weak and little more than a whisper, his breath running short. "Let's get you some brunch, bbydoll." Hiro didn't care that it was close to midday. He desperately wanted to take his lover out and let her enjoy the sunlight, the normal life of being up and about in the outdoors at such a time, not confided to darkness like he made her. No matter what he did, Hiro always felt as though he were bringing the lady down. Limiting her time, her life to that of a vampire, which he hated being himself. But it no longer mattered. Or rather it never did. With the amount of blood he had drank he would be alright for now and even with the sun's rays burning him his healing would keep up for now and his lust could still be controlled he hoped. At the very least, he couldn't bite her any more.

Before Era could protest, Hiro got up slowly and changed into an outfit that hid his scar's from her view. The longer sleeved cardigan hid his ruined arm so she wouldn't ask or cry about it. He knew it would tear her apart worse than his arm was. "What are you in the mood for, Era?" Hiro asked, fetching their coats.

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[era]

Era could still hear the scream Hiro made and it made her cringe slightly and press her hands harder to her ears, looking up at him as he walked out she took her hands from her ears as he sat down on the bed beside her. Leaning against Hiro gently she looked at his eyes and made a small nod of her head a small smile creeping onto her lips "Ok" she said softly, uncrossing her legs Era let her feet dangle over the edge of the bed.

Watching as Hiro got dressed Era gave a small shrug of her shoulders before she grinned childishly "Italian please" she said making her voice sound as adorable as she could.

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Hiro laughed lighed and looked over at his Era. He approached her almost cautiously, but had the most gorgeous smile across his pretty face. Even after being in such pain, he was still such a beautiful young man. It was enough to melt any girl's heart without even trying. Taking Era's dainty hand in his own slender palms, the vampire knelt down and gently kissed her hand. "Anything for you, M'lady." After backing off a little and bowing lightly, his polite gestures absolutely perfected, Hiro stood tall and proper. "You sure do have quite the fancy for Italian, Yes?" He chucked to himself lightly. "Do you remember? Oh it was years ago, but this one very rich evening I recall there were many people at your home. I swear it was nearly half of London perhaps." Hiro ran a hand through his hair and held out a soft hand to help his lady off the bed, her coat draped over his other arm. "I happened to wander by and catch a glimpse of you at your window, enjoying a dish by yourself. That is until your nanny came to scold you."

After helping his beloved Era up off her seat on the soft bed and putting a coat over her shoulders, Hiro took a few light strides across the room and unlocked a ornate wooden chest. All the while, he continued his story in the most interested, calming voice. "That plate nearly came crashing upon my head it did. Left me covered in some sort of Italian or another. Its been years now." Hiro turned around holding a small, white dish in his hands. It was cleaned of course but still somewhat old fashioned and quite an antique. "I suppose I ought to have returned this myself that evening, but you know... I was very quite sad to see them take you downstairs. You always seemed heaps happier alone with your pasta and a strange vampire crossing your view all too often."

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